i’m depressed

life seems rather blah to me lately.

i have some depression creepin in … roy thinks maybe its the seasonal affective disorder thing from lack of sunlight? whatevs.

nothing gives me joy or happiness… only temporary distractions.

i have to werk so hard to keep the depression at bay.

i’d like a simple life where i live in a shack and don’t work and have no social life. i don;t want to do anything. i just want to sleep and watch the squirrels and birds.

i don;t like my life how it is… but i don;’t know how i’d want it to be diff to make me satisfied?

i think i need to get out of the usa. it always gets back to that.