I’m going back to NYC

CA inn’t for me. At least year round. I’d like to spend a few weeks out here next summer like in Marin and Sonoma.

i need a trainer

i need to see a trainer again but am on a budget and can’t. i really need to get more exercise on my own goddammit. it’s hard.

maybe i should take up horseback riding again… i used to love it soooo much. everything seems like such an ordeal and a hassle. i’d prefer to hang out on my patio and putter in my garden and watch birds.

am i getting old? meh. whatevs.

i haven’t written here in a long time.

my own blog even bores me so here’s a picture of my neue qat. you’re welcome.

Iiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii was gonna say something, but I forgot what.

:-\

i often think of things to write when i am not poised in front of a keyboard and think “yeah i should write about that”. then i get in front of a keyboard and i blank. i’m like blahhhh my life is so booooring.

i leave for CA in a few dayssss yay. well, i’ll b working when i am there mon, tues, thurs and fri. but still. it’s better than being trapped in an office.

what else?

i made some nice, relatively tasty and healthy dinner food 2nite.

i’ve exercised sun, mon and today, tuesday. it’s a good thing.

remember how i did acid every morning for week in college once? i should exercise every day for a week to see if it’s as exciting. exciting in a middle-aged way. lol.

heavy sigh.

my life is so boring. i’ll add some fotos soon to prove it.

why do i have such a hard time getting going in the morning?

what’s wrong with me?

i can wake up and work in bed easily, and i do.

but getting out of bed and to the office is another thing. it’s like i need a few hours of being awake sedentary b4 taking off.

i get enough sleep and exercise.

what is wrong with me?

it can’t be perimenopause cuz i’ve been like this for years.

humh.

Boring life in general, Dublin, and horses.

OHai.

Nothing interesting has been happening of course. Just working and being boring. You know how it is being a UX professional sell-out workin for the man.

I took a break from reading Jean Plaidy books and read/am reading the Hunger Games trilogy which is fucking awesome. At first I was like how can they present such a violent book to young people? By the end of if I was won over. The nasty world they are in has so many parallels and metaphors for our current, real world. I think it’s great that the book was published and is selling so well. It’s good that young peeps are being encouraged to think critically about the world and stand up against the powers that be when something isn’t right. Hopefully young uns reading it will think that way. I do not know any ppl of that age who are reading it. I’m almost 1/2 way through the 3rd book, Mockingjay. After it I will go back to the Plaidy list.

Oh, and I went to fucking Dublin this month. “Fucking Dublin” doesn’t imply anything particularly bad or good. It was nice to get away from NYC for a while and be a tourist and explore a new place. Was only there for 6 days and was avec ma mere mais it was still fun anyway. It was a lot more chill than I thought it would be. And smaller. And everywhere we went, people were wildly polite and chatty. I was like WTF, who knew?

I really want to go back to Éire and rent a car and drive around the island. Just have to find someone who wants to do that with me who I’d want to go with too.

Here are some boring fotos:

Dublin, Eire, May 2012, bettyx1138’s fucking set on Flickr.

What else, what else?

It’s memorial day weekend now and I pathetically get a disproportionate amount of joy out of having an extra fucking day off from work cuz I’m such a fucking corporate cube frau now. Egad, I’ve really got to get a job where I can work remotely. Or something that isn’t so soul crushing. OTOH, the job has it’s good points. Like, it’s easy. The ppl are nice. Pay is OK. When I talk to friends who do what I do at other places I often realize how good I have it. I shouldn’t complain. Whatevs, the grass is always greener. It’s still soul crushing at times and I can’t deny that. Must work on this.

I went horseback riding today. It’s the 1st time I’ve been on a horse since I injured my back in 2003! It all came back to me like riding a bike. They were docile western saddle trail horses that were only supposed to walk but I’d let mine eat grass and get left behind then try to get him to canter up to the others. He cantered only once, but easily trotted and posting was like it was doing it yesterday. I was comfortable and happy as fuck to be on a moving horse again! I SOOOOO WANTED to canter the fuck away and gallop. (I can only gallop on western which we were on.)

I reallllly want to do real riding again now. I realize I am much older than I was when I last rode and rode frequently so I have to not let myself get carried away. There are some riding holiday things in the US, EU and Africa I totally want to do. Just have to find someone who will do it w/ me and get the time off from work. Yeah, the shitty limited vaca time at this corporate job is nearly killing me. I’ve got to negotiate something.

After having been freelance for so long, I’m really enjoying the easiness of the regular paycheck and not having to deal health ins not paying for shit like you do with crappy freelance health ins. Ach. Whatevs.

I’M ON A HORSE!

real life meeting and film/tv meeting

I was sitting in a meeting at the Madison ave agency where i work – oh, excuse me. I mean digital agency. In a meeting room across the street we could see a film shoot w actors in boring suits. (How long will it take for hollywood to catch on thar few ppl wear douchey suits anymore? And only do so reluctantly when they *have* to?)

real life madison ave meeting vs tv/film madison ave meeting

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my idea of a perfect day

my cat and a good book in bed. reading. all day. no disturbances or interruptions.

i resolve to have a midlife crisis, vice-filled 2011 – fuck yeah!

(picture appropriated from thenextweb.com from an article on copyright notices which was TLDR) DISCLAIMER to anyone who doesn't know me: this pic is used w/ sarcasm, i do not intend to become a cokehead this year. that was last year. haha just kidding. i just thought it was a funny picture. relax.

betty, what is your new year’s resolution? i hear you wondering, gentle reader.

there are a few. in order of priority:

1. i should get out more and be more social; at least once a week see someone that i don’t normally see weekly
2. get in better shape and lose some freakin weight
3. maybe find a bed buddy or boyfriend
   
4. maybe try that wretched online dating thing again, ugh prolly not; i’d rather go to dive bars and pick up naughty hooligans like this:
   

   (taken from friend's facebook profile and he forgets where he found it.) If you know where i can buy a print of this please email me!

    

5. be more ass kicking like the grrl in the grrl who with the dragon tattoo (this should motivate me to go to gym more)
   

^ i predict that a year from now, as always, none of these things will materialize. i’ll still be going to bed at 9pm and reading sappy novels.

whine:

i was just sick monday – friday the week between xmas and new years, the week that i get a free week off from work. wtf. i lost my week. i had wanted to do many things like tidy messy cabinets and closets, throw shit away and things like that. update my web site. and do some freelance work (i still have to do that!)

whaaaaaaa.