i loathe to see myself as an uptight “old” person and i will resist it til the day i die


am i getting "old" or are B&Ters these day really more annoying than i was at that age?

i’ve been in my SMP apt since “92, a long time for this hood.

i am so sick of the B&T douchebags being loud and drunk in this hood. i can’t tell tho if it’s me that’s gotten an inevitably 40-something “uptight/old” perspective on this or if the partying kids are really more annoying than i was at that age.

i loathe to see myself as an uptight “old” person and i will resist it til the day i die. but really now.

“why don’t u move, betty?” easy answer: because i have rent-stabilized place and it’s pretty insect and rodent-free (somewhat of a rarity it seems). but, if i get some phat salary increases in the coming years, i will move goddammit.

*sigh*

so, i am wrestling with the idea that I–me?!–could possibly be “uptight”. it’s such a crazy novel concept to me.

i guess “uptight” is relative.

there are more residential apts on these blocks than B&T’ers are surely aware of. but then again, who chooses to move onto such a block? a young 20-something from the exburbs who finds the block relatively safe coming home at 3AM as she often does…

ok, i moved here when i was young.  most ppl leave when they “out grow” this hood. but i can’t afford to leave. i am not the only person who’s been here for decades and feels as i do. but…. there aren’t many of us. *sigh* i’m just a complaining old lady aren’t i? lol.

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