100% pure brand coffee bean eye cream experiment starts now


today i bought this 100% pure brand coffee bean eye cream.

i am skeptical about cosmetics that make such claims yet i still get an occasional burst of hope that something might eliminate or lessen the sunken dark half moons under my eyes.

so, starting today (technically yesterday 11/6/13) i am going to put it on one eye and after a month evaluate whether there is any difference between my 2 eyes. i’m not expecting it to. if it works i will be overwhelmed with joy. i’ll let you know  on or around 12/6/13.

ps – i’m not going to post any ‘before’ pics because  i don’t want to publicize how horrendous my eyes are.

100% pure brand coffee bean eye cream

100% pure brand coffee bean eye cream

i need a trainer


i need to see a trainer again but am on a budget and can’t. i really need to get more exercise on my own goddammit. it’s hard.

BUSTER-trainer

maybe i should take up horseback riding again… i used to love it soooo much. everything seems like such an ordeal and a hassle. i’d prefer to hang out on my patio and putter in my garden and watch birds.

am i getting old? meh. whatevs.

the daily whine: my life is so boring


my life is so boring

my life is so boring

i go to work all week at moderately soul-crushing job. (it’s like the least soul-crushing i can find.)

i see a trainer once a week on tuesdays.

i do a bollywood dance class on mondays.

i do a hip hop bollywood dance class on thursdays.

sundays i go to the gym.

i have some upcoming trips to look forward to – a week in northern CA in july, then 2 weeks in southern italia and amalfi. ok fine.

i read these lovely jean plaidy books.

i do have a great bff to hang out with every day. technically my ex-b/f but he’s just my bff now. and that’s fine and lovely the way it is. we’ve been together in one way or another for 20 yrs now! holy shiznit!

i don’t have the energy to do anything arty cuz i work 40+ hours/week.

i have to do some retirement savings planning and calculations and save a bunch so i can retire early to get that little extra social security (which is not much really) and live off savings or interest.  that way i can have a life again without having to have a wage slave job. goddamn it.

i want to spend time doing the silversmithing jewelry making i started learning and doing. and maybe real art like urban bedtime stories again.

OMG I’m old enough to need BIFOCALS WTF?!


I knew it would happen at some point but I didn’t feel it was time yet, but it is. Yes, gentle readers, it is official that this betty needs (gulp) bifocals.

For months, when I read in bed, I’ve been using these clip-on magnifiers that I have for making jewelry.

Me actively repressing the idea that I need bifocals.

Me actively repressing the idea that I need bifocals.

So I’m out doing errands yesterday and I pass the eyeglass place that I’ve used forever – Manhattan Eyeworks. (They’re very nice there and their prices are cheaper than other places. I recommend them except for everything except for buying frames. Their frames are kind of boring. Get frames elsewhere like at Devonshire Optical,  MyopticsFabulous Fanny’s, etc.)

Anyway, so reluctantly swing in to see if I can get an eye exam on the fly or schedule one and they could see me then. So, yeah. It was a moment of slight depression when he said I need them. They have “progressive” lenses now, like a gradient for the lens so you don’t see the block where the bifocal part is.

So, whatevs, I’ll bring in one of my frames today to have done. It will be nice to see better. It’s only been 1.5 years since my last lens upgrade but I’ve noticed I can’t see distances as well too.

Sigh.

Look – I’m not as fat as I was a year ago!


moi on city island., originally uploaded by bettyx1138.

m sick, at least w/ gall bladder stones; hope it’s not worse


yippee!

so after about a month of on and off bad to moderate symptoms i had a sonogram (2 days ago, friday) which showed gall badder stones.

the GI dr however was like i’m not convinced that’s the cause. he said something about the walls of the gall bladder looking normal and not inflamed.

so tomorrow (monday) i’ll talk to him again. he should get blood test results re: liver and pancreas.

m only mildly queasy now. been taking zegerid which has helped a lot w/ the hard core bad pain and nausea.

of course i’ve been reading on my own on the interwebs.

could be pancreatitis. or could be pancreatic cancer. hope it’s simply gall bladder stones or pancreatitis.

i want to be fine to go to suisse on 9/2/11 goddammit!!

it doesn’t ease my worry that I’ve dropped 10 lbs in the past month. not cool. could b cuz i haven’t eaten much cuz i’ve been nauseous. but it’s also a cancer symptom. i am glad to drop weight as i’ve always been overweight but i’d prefer to lose it from normal dieting and working out.

i feel like i’ve had bad luck throughout my life and getting cancer would fit in. like yep just my luck that the worse thing that could happen to me has happened.

i just need to talk to GI dr tomorrow and find out plan of action. goddammit.

my idea of a perfect day


my cat and a good book in bed. reading. all day. no disturbances or interruptions.